View from the 50 yard line

The post below was actually written many years ago while Barbara was going through her first round of treatment. So much has happened since then. I had no idea these posts still existed when I stumbled upon them yesterday. I am taking that as a sign that I should resurrect this blog so I will be doing this. But I think to make it real I should first post this entry from something like ten years ago...



Our doctor told us that if you include the radiation and chemo Barbara has had as of now we are just about halfway through her treatments. She will be admitted into Sloan Kettering next week to start the next phase of the chemo. (Actually that is the tentative plan as of now but she is fighting the possible onset of a cold so we will see.) The next phase is 6 treatments of systemic chemo to attack any possible microscopic cancer cells of the transformed disease that may be lurking somewhere in her body. She still needs another 6 Omaya treatments into the spinal fluid but hopefully she will be able to get those interspersed with the systemic. All in all OUR goal is to be done with treatments by May 3rd.

This 50% marker has brought up some feelings and thoughts in me. I remember in June when we were first starting all of this and had just received the diagnosis of why Barbara had suffered from the confusion, I was talking to the doctor's nurse and thanked her for all she and Dr. Weiss were doing. I said how amazing I thought they and the rest of the staff at Memorial Sloan Kettering were and she told me that they were not angels. I must have been pouring it on rather thick since she said to me that "after all, they got to go home." Now I see what she meant. This is home for me. And if that is how I feel, just imagine what Barbara must be feeling. I do have to say though that her fighting spirit day after day is a thing to marvel at. Here is one lady who does not feel sorry for herself.